Larry/Koba

Yeah, I love her, and I miss her terribly. I can't help myself. I wanted to wait a month or two before being sure of it, but it came so naturally and felt so right when I told her. So it's official, her and I are a couple, and I can't remember being this happy. Today after work I went out and got all my chores done so that when I see Ashley tomorrow, I won't have to do them, and after I did them I had some spare time to drop off at the store and get her a gift. Hehe, as I know she reads this journal now, I'm not gonna mention it.. because that would be cheating, Ashley. Naughty, naughty girl. You need a spanking. :P Hehe, but anyway, since the last time I posted, what has happened? To be honest, not very much. My schedule seems to be booked solid every day of the week now unless someone makes plans to hang out a week in advance. Lol. I'm not complaining, and I rather enjoy it. This weekend from Thursday to Sunday, Nina, Ashley and her daughter Ashley stayed over my place. It was great, although Ashley and I hit a bump on Saturday, we made up by the end of the night and went to bed happy again. I hate going to bed without resolving an argument or problem. And I really hate to see her upset. And we had so much fun this past weekend. Starting Thursday night, D&D happened, Friday we went out shopping allll day, Brian came over around 9pm after we got home, hung out for a while, worked Saturday, then spent some more time with my baby that night. Sunday I brought them both home, and now tomorrow I get to see my baby girl again. Hehe, it feels so good to say that. Never had a girlfriend that I called that, because I thought it was a little demeaning, but this time it is so adorable. So is Lexi, what a kid. She's smart, and so far so easy to get along with. She can spend a whole day in the back of the car and only complain once or twice. Oh, and the computer still isn't working. Haven't found the time to work on it, maybe I will tonight if I'm not too exhausted in the next hour or so, because the last problem I think that there is concerns the power switch. If that's the case, then I'll my computer back tonight. Let's hope so.

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So I suppose my thoughts of distrust towards Jeanne were justified. (Yeah, fuck a segway, I'm getting right into this subject.) I discovered that she slept with two of my friends to "get back at me" for having been with Jaimee. Now, nothing happened between her and I, we just hung out a few times.. but that's beside the point. Two people that Jeanne had asked if her and I could have a threesome with both slept with her while I asleep, in my house, only a few feet away from me. Now, I was okay with the idea of threesomes with them, but for some reason they turned down the offer after she asked me about it. Funny coincidence, right? Now, this secret would have been kept secret forever if not for one of them asking Jeanne herself if she had been with the other person that was accused. She flipped out, deleted everyone from her myspace and facebook accounts (childish, I know, for an innocent person), and told me things were thru between us. The next day, of course we're still talking. She told me what happened, I asked around, and one of my friends confessed that she knew about what happened because Jeanne herself told her about it, but not just about one person.. she told me about both of them. Keep in mind that at the time, I had an open mind to the situation, so I asked around some more. One of the accused denied his head off, so did Jeanne after I discussed it with her, but.. the second accused confessed. Not just once, but doubly, even after I gave him the chance to take it back for some reason or another. Needless to say, Jeanne and I broke up, because she just wouldn't tell me the truth.. I could not trust her. She says he's lying.. but why the fuck would someone lie about being with your girlfriend and not letting you know about it after? Well, I forgave the one that confessed, and I thanked the one that told me she had been with both of them.. but I still don't trust her, so we had a "mutual" breakup on July 4th. Same night, I went out on a little date with someone I had been talking to since a week before (when the rumours got started, and I already had a feeling they were true.) Now, her and I are getting along well.. but Jeanne is still pleading for me to come back. Personally, I don't want a relationship right now. I want to be what it was like for me when I was dating Arlette, but you know.. minus the heart aching attachment. I want to be single, I want to have fun, I want to be independent for god-fucking-damn once. So, that's what's happened since the last post. Not to mention a lot of fights that Jeanne and I had yet again. But what else was new? Now my friends don't want to talk to her, or at least.. the ones that know what has happened. I've given Jeanne the option to talk to friends that have not heard the word yet.. and of course to the ones that have heard.. because who am I to say who she can and cannot be friends with? Besides, I trust my friends, although it's hard for me to do. I really don't have much trust these days, having been back stabbed so frequently.. and why? All I ever do is give, yes.. I have some trouble with my lack of energy, but I'm working a full time strenuous job now.. Give me some slack, will you people? I mean, I already know that's why I don't see Lance as much as I used to.. he's working a full time managerial position and he lives nearly an hour away! I can't expect much from that. (Quick backtracking of subject here..) I am however starting to feel something for this girl Ashley.. and I think she does for me too.. but I don't want to rush things. She has an 8 month old, and I don't want to get into a relationship with her unless I know I'm going to stick to it.. because the amount of damage that could happen if I wasn't would be devastating to her. She's already come to mean so much to me that I would never wish that on her. She's.. well.. let's just say I really admire her for all she's worth.. I guess it helps that her Astrological sign and mine are so perfectly matched. Haha. (Me: Libra, Her: Aquarius) And this week has been so much, seeing her so often, coming home to an empty house.. everyone went on vacation to Moose Hillock, and that gave me such a nice break. The sad part is.. they come back tomorrow night. I wish they would just stay out for another week! I haven't had enough time without them yet. Don't know what else to talk about. If any readers are aware of more that has happened, let me know, and I will oblige by expanding this into another entry. Til then, ta ta for now, happy days, highest of hopes, and may cherubic wings guide you to accomplishing your dreams.

These are my private thoughts. Take it with a grain of salt.

After the previous journal entry, I intended on scribing more of my thoughts, but had to take a break from the wave of emotions I finally let out after all this time. I believe that I am.. slowly.. getting over it. But, it's going to take a while.

On the lighter side of things. There is a new light of my life, named Jeanne. It's funny how things work like that. No longer than three days after returning home, in the darkest times of my recovery, a new light shined in the face of an Angel I met (once again via the internet. Yeah, the guys at work still pick on me for that.) But, she's not just on the internet. Hell, it didn't last more than a week before we met and she was living with me. Issues with her mother (un)fortunately rushed the dating process and now I have a roommate. Damn, it's difficult getting over the fact that it's not just my living space anymore. At times I think, "Who the fuck does she think she is..", but then I remember the circumstances and try thinking of what it would be like in her shoes. Although, I can never really know, because I haven't even had the chance of getting a third point of view from someone that she knows and I don't ( i.e., her family/friends.) But! And wow, I do say "but" a lot. Umm, I'm happy with her being here. I just wish things hadn't had to rush so fast. I'm not saying that I regret the quick decision, but they would have gone smoother if gone though the right channels. I believe that there would be a hell of a lot less fighting going on right now if we had just taken the time to know each other a little more and learn, but I love her and I believe that she loves me, and she has shown that. That's what matters. We're making compromises and enjoying each others' company (at least I hope she enjoys mine, well, at times I can be a complete ass.) I hope that she understands where I'm coming from; if I hadn't experienced things in that past I would be a much better boyfriend. A lot of my ex girlfriends seemed to lack the wisdom to acknowledge that idea, but I would be. I would be the most loving, faithful, concerned, and probably very suffocating guy a girl would know. I've learned, well been conditioned, to do things not quite up to par as I should. And returning to a closed relationship is a bit itchy at first, but I'm re-adjusting to it. So if you're reading this don't take it as an exasperated sigh, but as more of a dialog box you would see pop up on a computer screen... "Loading... 76%.." that's kind of stuck right now. The bandwith should higher when the lagg disappears.

In other news.. let's see.. socially?
D&D goes well. There have been some bumps in the road (no pun intended in relation to what I've been talking about..) with the group that's playing, but I think we're improving and having a great time. Every Monday(moving to Thursdays starting next week) night we have gotten together and played from 7~8 to 3 in the morning! Hours of nonstop fun, laughs, and hanging out with good friends. I usually bring the Mountain Dew and snacks, Patrick DM's, Seth and Sony bring some sweets, and Brian brings his charming personality(no sarcasm intended.)

Work is well. Someone quit, so now I've got full time hours until they can get someone to replace some hours, including Mondays so that I can get that free for now, since they suck SO MUCH for tips. The guys were very supportive of me driving to Texas and baring with the time it took to repair the car.

Friends are fine, it seems. Not much change. Jen has a miscarriage, or so I've heard. Duncan is still his anti-social, self-mutilating self with short hair now. Zombie is still the same lowlife bum, who left Jen after finding out she was preggers. David's life is still in the shitter, his fiance breaking up with him and still being a transient of sorts.

Physically? No changes, still in distress with smoking. I can't afford Djarum cloves anymore, so I've switched to a low end menthol brand called Kool's. Yech, but at least it gets me my nicotine fix. It's so damn difficult to quit, though.

School? Got dropped from my class from a lack of attendance. But! The creditors are off my back about the federal loans, now I just have to pay a 56 dollar delinquent credit with Quest Diagnostics over some blood work. I just totally forgot about it, because other things seemed more important.

Oh, and I'm learning to keep things a little more tidy in my basement. Well, not really my choice, since Jeanne is so OCD.. but it does feel nice to be in a moderately clean living space. Haha.

Which reminds me. I have to clean out my computer and install WinXP 64bit..

Besides that. FOR THE ALLIANCE! Vaya con dios, and take it easy, people.

I'm outtie!



... Why are you still reading this? GTFO, n00bl3t.

""I'll try!", she said as she walked away,
"try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change..
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting, tested and secure."

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me.
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall."

... these lyrics echoed from my car "stereo"(if you are one to call it that), as I drove from Pasadena, Texas, returning to the only home I have ever known in Lowell, Massachusetts. I should have known from the first day that she returned home this past January that something was awry, but as always.. when I truly love someone.. I am blinded by the fact that I think they are the most perfect person in the world and that every word out of his/her mouth is infallible. Of course, I was wrong. After a few months of drifting apart and fighting increasing exponentially, I decided to take a very bold move. A bold move that not even I thought that I could do ever in my life; I only dreamed of doing such a thing. I lied to my family, had my friends lie as well, and drove a fey-ridden vehicle from my mother's house in Lowell down to Texas to surprise visit my supposedly faithful and never-wrong fiance. After driving 29 painstakingly long hours in a matter of two days, I arrived at my then-betrothed's home at 3am. This was of course no late time for her. She worked the third shift, and this was as if mid day to any other normal human being. I bought her a plastic flower from the gas station that was only a mile away from her place, and wrote a note on it, planning on knocking on her door and having her read it before discovering me having pulled up by the side of the dilapidated house. Her friends, knowing I was coming, or perhaps just to see my twisted face as I caught her in the act with her new boyfriend, awaited with her inside. I approached the door and was spotted before being able to do what I planned, and their laughter and merriment was silenced. I knocked on the door twice, they told her to answer the door, but instead a friend opened it for her. I saw her standing at a distance, the new man hanging off of her arm. I didn't know what to feel. I don't know whether or not it was the lack of sleep or the siphoning effect of driving for more than 20 hours concurrently in a day that deprived me of all emotion, but seconds later as she approached me I had a sudden rush of hope and despair at the same time. She pulled me outside, they were as quiet as mice as she spoke softly to me, "It's just not a good time. I'm sick, I just got off of work, and.. It's just not a good time. I'm sorry." I was awestruck, as if the world I had thought I had known just decided to strike me down and send me directly to hell, do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.. "Do you want your class ring?" For some reason, I almost said, "No, you keep it." But instead, I regained my balls and thought quickly, "No, if you don't take it now, you will never get it back." So I said yes, she gave it to me, and I left thereafter; receiving a text on my cellphone saying, "You should just go back to Boston where you belong." Of course, there's more to the story, but I'll leave a small part out. Let's just say that I will never be the same after that return trip home. I drove.. and drove.. and drove.. I drove to the point of beyond what I could, mentally and physically.. and yet somehow I kept going.. before losing all mental awareness and nearly going insane on an interstate in Virginia. It was 4am in the morning, I had driven once again for another 14 hours with only a three hour nap at a hotel in Louisiana and I felt like vomiting.. I realized that I had neither eaten for that period of time nor did I have anything to drink except Monster and Nos energy drinks. I cracked. I cracked to the point I was amazed that I could pull myself back to the point of death, it seemed. I remember pulling over on the side of a pitch black road, pulling down my pants at the side of the road, and shitting off the highway with a horrible case of diarrhea. I slapped myself after pulling my pants up, I had been crying and screaming, my throat felt like someone had ripped open my vertebrae with a serrated kitchen knife. I told myself, "This is not how it's going to end. Get yourself to together. Get in the car. Go to a hotel. And sleep, god dammit!" The day after, I drove again to Virginia, visiting Jess.. my old ex-girlfriend from when I was 14. An online relationship, which felt just as real as any other love I've ever had, despite the lack of physical contact. I stayed for a few days, we talked, and I regained my humanity in that short time before returning home. I am ever thankful to her for being there for me. Before she held a place in my heart that I'd never forget, and now she is so much more than that; in a way that I cannot explain. After returning home and paying over one thousand bucks in car repairs.. I was broken, penniless, and forever emotionally scarred. I still cannot drive at night by myself without feeling extremely anxious. Flashbacks of driving 2000 miles straight, all alone, with only the voices of a few friends that seemed to really care.. you'd feel the same, I assure you (whomever would be reading this far).. Previously, I had never truly trusted anyone, except Jess and Arlette. I still don't. I won't trust anyone ever again.

To whom I have been with during the time Arlette and I were together and in an open relationship, I am sorry. I used you. I needed someone to be with me. Honestly, except for Myndee, I felt such shame being with you. You loved me, and I didn't return a single emotion. I may have appeared that way, but I was only using you. I am low. Lower than a snake's balls at sea level..

And Jeanne, that is why I have been such a dick. Truthfully, I do care for you.. It is not your fault for how I've treated you. I don't hate you, I don't mean to treat you as if I don't want to spend time with you. I do.. but I'm afraid to get too close. I cannot even trust myself..

Me: Stay diluted, it means nothing to me now. The weight of the worry I had for you lifted the day after when I had some sleep. As far as I'm concerned, I have a lot less to worry about now. No more concern for your well being.
Arlette: you think your vindictive .. trust me i can be to hun and i litterally mean that as far as im concerned you are the one that ended it not me
Me: I'm glad.
Arlette:well good fucking job you did
Me: No, they're clean. I just wanted to cut you emotionally at that time.
Arlette:and this coming from the person that said they slept with 12+ diffrent girls unprotected at least all my friends with benifits are repeat clean people
Me: You tried but did nothing of the sort? You made no mention, but say it's a break, "I still love you." Etc. What am I supposed to think? I knew nothing of this guy.
Arlette:i tried to tell you the day i was doing laundry and that night on the phone you decided to come down here not me not krystal no one but you
Me: But no matter what you say, nothing can be made up for how you reacted when I was there. Nothing. You're dead to me, as far as I'm concerned.
Me: You keep bringing up the topic of mistrust, when I suppose I should have been feeling it. After all, it was you that I walked in on with your friends and new boyfriend(after only a day of it being "over".) And what kind of friends are they to not tell me and save me the trouble, when I hinted to Krystal I was coming, and even when she heard from Justin that I was close by. That would have saved me a lot of money.
Arlette:hun im sorry for the way it ended i couldent take feeling like i was beinf mistrusted or disbelieved it hurt to bad
Me: I see now that I should have really ended it then and not tried.
Arlette:ya and i tried to tell you that maybe a break would be best because of all the tension going on and well i was crushed when you sent those text messages and well at that point it was you that technically ended it
Me: Yeah, I did. That was the point of the travelling. To make it up to you. I meant to stay there for the week and help you in anyway I could. I was even thinking of staying permanently, you meant so much to be. But you try driving 29 hrs in two days just to be sent home, and see how you feel.
Arlette:ok imagin you were in my shoes for the last few months then see how i felt
Me: I never was.
Arlette:to me it sounded like you were second guessing out relationship
Me: I said I NEVER second guessed it. I just missed you!
Arlette:i was busy and even if i hadent been if you know i loved you why would you have seconed guessed it at all
Me: Yeah, I know that. But showing a little affection now and again wouldn't have hurt. I don't know how you could have gone for so long without even saying "hello."
Arlette:and i told you that wasnt the case i had been busy with work construction and all that shit
Me: I never thought you were lying. I felt like I was being ignored.
Arlette:and how was that .....all i felt sice the lase time i went up there and came home was that you felt that all i was doing was lieing to you that hurt more tyhan ever
Me: You had no idea the lengths I would have gone to make you happy. In a matter of five minutes you dashed everything I had in you.
Me: Exscuse me for believing you when you said to trust you when you still "Loved" me.
Arlette:that was on your accord not mine
Arlette:no and i tried to tell you that it was over before you made that trip that i didnt know you were taking
Me: You're a rotten human being, I can't believe you expected one of my friends to still talk to you after what happened.

I remembered an old, sad video that I watched five years ago from today.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=inEO2ukDVT0

It still makes me bawl my eyes out.

I've recently (in the last half hour) finally gotten my 24/7 ecclectic radio music station up and running. Music ranges from any genre you can think of, literally.

http://larrysradio.servemp3.com:8002/ <- Check this out for song history and a link to play in your music player, or just open it as a stream in your music player.

Also, I have a Vent server I'm trying to populate currently and everyone is welcome!
Here's the vent server info: larryshangout.servebeer.com, port 3784, no password. Also online 24/7.

1. Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favourite Movie:

5. Favourite Song or Album:

6. Favourite Band or Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

10. What's your philosophy on life?

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favourite memory of us?

14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

16. You can have three wishes for yourself, what are they?

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Which country is your spiritual home?

19. What is your big weakness?

20. Do you think I'm a good person?

21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?

22. Describe your accent:

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Trousers or skirts?

26. Cigarettes or alcohol?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

A. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
B. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people.

1. My first sexual feelings emerged while...reading a chain mail about a kid catching his brother and his girlfriend having sex, from a friend when I was 14 years old. It had no intention of being sexual, either.
2. I love the idea of snowboarding and skiing, but have never tried them.
3. I don't wear whitie tidies unless it's a formal occasion, otherwise I wear boxers, because my balls hang too low.
4. I don't have any piercings, not yet anyway!
5. I don't think I'm attractive. I think I'm very good at picking out pictures of myself that make me appear that way. (Same way)
6. I don't wear makeup, and I don't like women that wear makeup either.
7. I'm a n00b at Texas Hold'em, but a pro at 6 hand stud.
8. I will never cook and bake in my family's house, in fear that I will do well, and be forced to do so on future occasions.


Don't know whom to tag, so do it if you want to :P

Jesus, it's been far too long since I've updated this thing..

After the last time I posted, I visited my now fiancee Arlette for her birthday, and that was such a blast.. Met some of her family, friends, and coworkers, went to the Rocky Horror Picture Show live show in Houston with her, went out to eat with her Dad's side of the family, got a little tipsy one night and put on a show hehe, visited her workplace.. it all seemed to evanescent.. arriving and disappearing far too fast.. and I haven't seen her since, besides on Webcam and talking on the phone. She'll be coming back to visit in less than two weeks now, and I'm so excited. She gets to see more of my friends, go to a party, and experience a shitload of snow. And yes, we're engaged now, but not officially. See, the morning before she left, I brought her to Walden Pond for the sunrise and gave her my class ring as a promise ring and although the weather wasn't perfect, her reaction was.. Until I can afford the real ring, which I already have picked out, I'll be giving that to her. As for right now though, I have to save that money for school, as I just applied for the next semester and a payment plan. I'm sick of getting further into debt. Anyway, yeah, I planned on giving it to her in a surprising way when she moves here. I hope that will be this July, as I think that's plenty of time to adapt to the idea of it for her, and the distance although not so bad at first has gotten worse to me.

BUT! I will wait as long as it takes. Arlette is worth it, and I cannot see myself spending my life with anyone else but her. Sexually, it's been also difficult, as we're having an open relationship.. so I've been trying to find friends with benefits. The first person I found seemed promising (Kate Renzi), but did some nice backstabbing to a close friend, now I can't trust her. I'm talking to someone else about it now, and although I do enjoy the heat of the moment, I still feel guilty for even wanting to be with someone else but Arlette. I know she's okay with it, and she does the same, but.. I'd rather be with her. Or with her and someone else. Or with her and two others. Haha, but, that's not gonna be solid for a while.. and I'm trying to make the best with what I've got. Sure, Arlette and I still have fun on webcam and the phone, but it's not the same..

Different subject. Not sure if I had covered this or not in my last true post about school, but I dropped last semester to "find myself", and however it seems like little has changed. I have renewed my spirit, had some time to think and adjust, and registered for the spring semester just not an hour ago online. I'm excited, not just because I'm going back, but this time I have set up another payment plan and it's affordable. No more FAFSA, as I saw the interest rate, and would rather pay while attending. I mean, it's only 1.1k for this semester, that's like 280 per month and that's nothing compared to other bills I've seen. Now I just need to get my books and make the first payment, which isn't due until the second payment on the 20th of February.

Mmm, now that I've covered love and school, what else is there.. social? Okay. Friends!

I am worried for Duncan. Not just for his self destructive patterns, but his emotional and physical issues. The first time he told me that his eyesight was going, and said it was treatable by surgery, I wasn't so taken aback as I am now. It hurts me to see him going thru all this pain, compacted with the problems between him and Rose, and his ex's. I wish I could say I told you so, but hey, better to have loved and lost and never had loved at all.. and I'm sticking to it. He was happy when they were together, and that's all that mattered.

Things with Jen seem to be escalating at an uncontrolled pace, and I have reserved thoughts on it. I hope that she can find some resolution that does not involve self-mutilation.. She has become a close family friend and I'd hate to see her in any more pain than she already is.

As for other friends, all the people that I thought would drift away after high school have pretty much done that, but oh! You won't believe this, if you've been an avid reader, but Vinny and I are on friendly speaking terms again. Shocked? I know I am. Damn, he's changed. He's not the arrogant, self-absorbed, perverted little troll that he used to be.. I think this is because of how much life has dealt him a shitty hand. All my spiteful wishes had come true, unfortunately for him. Love life, social life, his car totaled, career down the tubes, it's all gone to shit. A part of me regrets wishing these things in the first place, but then he would not have become the person he is today. Preparing to finish off his Salie Mae debts and enter a monastery, he has become a much more.. enlightened person, and I'm so glad to be speaking to him again. I had a stray thought about the marraige of Arlette and I, and I couldn't imagine him not being there. Shortly after, I receieved a short apology from him on Facebook. Funny how things work out..

Now it's time for family issues. Well! My niece tried to kill herself one afternoon, before Arelette's arrival in September for my birthday, with a dull rock. Needless to say my sister had the police called and brought her to the mental hospital. She would have come home the next day, if not for her homicidal threat on the entire family that would be carried out in her sleep. From then until now, she's not come home and never will. She is staying in a group home, with 24 hour care, and they still don't know what the fuck's wrong with her. After a month or two they even started to see her "true" side, because when she's in a new place.. she acts like a good person.. but then she gets used to it and all her lying and disgusting habits show thru. It may be too graphic to go into detail with all her issues, I'm just glad she's gone and she doesn't want come back.. For the simple reason that there's no yelling in the house anymore, and no issue with where she'd need to sleep, since Johnathan now took over her room. For all I care, Hannah could die tomorrow and nothing would change.

Hmm, family, friends, love, school.. is it time for the money topic now? Must be, since there's been no change in my religion.. oh, but politics! Yes, talk about politics..

OBAMA, OBAMA, OBAMA! I knew he'd win, but by such a landslide, now that took me by surprised. He won stats that for the past 20 years always voted Republican. Haha! Shows you just how much the people finally want a change in this country. Deal with another Bush? FUCK NO. But the problem with Obama's changes is that they won't be quick fixes, they will take time. For example, his global warming solution is going to take 50 years to reach completion.. but shit, at least it's realistic! I hope he doesn't get shot like Kennedy, for now I'm glad to be an American again.

There's a few things else I could speak of lightly.. went to a fetish club in Northampton last month.. that was fun.. been clubbing more often at Resurrection.. but I think that's all I have on my mind.

Now I'm going to go back to reading my new book, the first novel in Laurell K. Hamilton's Anita Blake series, and talking with my Crimson Cheeks... They're both so addicting.

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DARK INTENTIONS RETURNS!

Today's gonna be a good day! I woke up with news that my old wallet was found on the side of the road and a romantic txt from my gf. ^__^ I'm gonna finish up this morning cigarette, take a shower, head to the Police Dept. to get my wallet, and leave for work. Working from 11am to 7pm today because of the Holiday, let's hope it's worth it! I have a feeling it will be..

I love this new icon. It looks like The Doctor is getting fucked up the ass. Hahaha